Trying to keep up…

The first few steps are the hardest. I'm still having a hard time with setting the pace myself, finding the rhythm and the time to allot to something personal. Things are coming my way, but I feel that I'm not maximizing the opportunities, or that I'm not really meeting them the way I should. Sometimes I feel like a child at a loss, tossing and turning and walking aimlessly. 

Oh well… Most of the things in my life feel so cloudy right now. But if there's anything that has changed, I feel that I am somewhat more open to mistakes now. This attitude I owe to attending a foreign language class, which encourages the students to speak and commit mistakes, so that they learn from their mistakes. With the mistakes coming, more topics that are not usually discussed are opened. I just wish that I get over my analysis-paralysis somehow.